Hi,
Somewhere along the way somebody told you either directly or indirectly that you were a peice of crap who didn't deserve to be loved and you believed them. And you still believe them. It's not the fat you hate-it's not you you hate-it's that feeling of not being lovable that you're hating on. Lose all the weight you want-do it until you can't lift your head off your pillow but you're still not going to feel good about yourself. You're putting an ice pack on your head to treat an ingrown toe nail by trying to starve that bad feeling out of you. (((((((((((Dcs_no1_fan)))))))))))))))