I thought everyone had the cross talk in their head. I thought that everyone would become someone different depending on the situation. It wasn't until I wasn't able to stop certain behaviors and at times was able to see myself doing stuff that I said I wouldn't do. My system was breaking down and parts were everywhere. I was telling a friend and she said I was dissociating. I Googled it and there I was. All of us. The diagnosis was a relief at first because it meant that I wasn't losing my mind but going forward it was often very hard to accept.