Yes i did try to open up to some people before, hoping it would make me better but it in fact made me feel even worse. They simply responded such as "no, you think too much", "you're just overreacting, deal with it", "why are you like this? don't be like that", "it could be worse" without knowing why and how bad i was feeling.
It made me feel stupid, i've always had a feeling such as "no, what's the point of telling them? seems like they won't understand.." before i try to tell anyone about my stories, and mostly that feeling is always true
Now i only open up to my 2 close friends who have been through similar situation and exactly understand. But still it makes no chance to my situation. I did talk to psychologists before but the result was disappointing. So i have constant fear to open up, a fear that anything will touch my wounds again
I'm so tired..