my T is so pushing the how well I am doing thing. does she want me gone ? it is adding to me being completely overwhelmed. nothing fits . nothing I am doing fits with how I am feeling or what she is seeing . I feel fake .im terrified that things will never be better if she sees me as doing so well and making so many good changes .she is not hearing me .at least I don't think she is .things are going to implode if they don't level out in my head and start making sense. she isn't seeing me or im not showing or saying the right things. I feel invisible to her . like she is trying to convince me of something that isn't true.i just wish I had better words then things just are not matching . they are not connected . my head is getting so scattered . yup I am teaching a craft class .yup I am trying to talk and keep the lines of communication (epic failure this week but seemed to go unseen, did she not want to see it) im terrified that I am going to stay in this fragmented unconnected state forever because im all better and I don't know how to do that . im fake