it has a lot to do with my theory of their being plenty of ways to fail at life

i posted about this in another thread (i think anyway?), but anyway my thoughts are that since i've got nothing to show for my life so far, and as long as i continue to have nothing to show for it, i'm kept from dying.

like someone saying to me... well, you've wasted your life so far, and if you're not going to make the most of it, you're stuck here until you do.

along those lines..