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I am sick and depressed and angry and tired and frustrated that I have sent my son information about Borderline Personality Disorder and he doesn't even take the time to read it.
He's fed up with angry outbursts. If he read the information he'd know why but he won't read it and it fuels my anger. I'm stuck in a never-ending black hole.
I have always been there for my children as far as emotional support and now when I need him he doesn't care enough to try to understand.
I'm so fed up - no one has tried harder than me to explain but it doesn't matter what I say. I have poured out my heart for years and all he says is don't be negative. He has tried very hard to understand emotional problems of others but not me.
My mood is not anxious - i don't know how to change it MY MOOD IS FRUSTRATION & ANGER & SADNESS all rolled into one.
Really bad things happened to me when I was growing up and there was no one there.
Today as an adult nothing has changed, my life is one long never-ending lonely aching black hole.
WHAT IS IT ABOUT ME THAT MAKES ME DIFFERENT why does everyone else but me deserve to be loved and cared for.
I wish so bad I could kill myself but religious concerns keep me from it. I don't know if I was bleeding to death in front of my son if he would care.
I'm so tired of caring about everyone like I always have done but when I need help EVERYONE HAS TURNED THEIR BACK ON ME.
I'm so sick of everything.
Last edited by shezbut; Feb 19, 2015 at 02:51 AM.
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