You'll feel a MILLION times better if you go NC. Of course, sudden unexpected contact can cause major spikes in symptoms, but overall you will feel much better. I kicked my mom out of my life and I am doing SO much better.....well, WAS until I had unexpected contact (not my doing). Now I'm trying to come down from that spike in symptoms.

I like who I am without my mom in my life. I never could say that before.

Forgiveness is up to you. I don't forgive those who don't ask for it. My mom was never sorry, so she is simply gone. I don't have time or patience for people who do me wrong with no remorse. If a guy came up to me on the street and sucker punched me, refusing to say he's sorry, would I want him in my life? Heck no! The only reason I was keeping my mother around was because she gave birth to me? Not a good enough of a reason.