I think I can relate to what you say about appearing helpless and weak. I hate that aspect of it too. I know this too is a distortion but I still don't open up to people close to me about what happened because I don't want them to see me in a different light.

This is where your therapist comes in! You don't have to tell everyone…but you won't be judged harshly by your therapist. It might really help to tell your therapist.