... and mental issues. This is my second post on psychcentral. See my previous post if interested.

it's gotten to the point where I considered maybe I'd be happy being homeless. No one in their right mind would think that.

I'm very very worried about my student loans. Unexpectedly my deferment didn't go through for this year even though I do have a year of deferment left. So I'm deliquent for two months now. I have no work ethic.

Every time I try to come off as friendly or extroverted in the work place I get negative reactions. I have no friends. Only one with whom I am in live with and he is with me.

I did not get the degree. I have shut down today and just took sleeping pills so I could go back to sleep.

I have no idea how to get a job, navigate through the workforce and work my way up. I've had about a year of regular ol retail and fast food experience.

I'm a mess up. Seriously.

I need to start asking for help.