Even when i was a child i felt like something was very wrong with me that made me dofferent from my friends. I must didnt know what to call it. In a lot of ways, i thought being different peope and losing time and drifting away from my body and seeing through a long tunnel and hearing voices was just normal. And yet i also knew i needed to keep it a secret,somehow. As i became a teenager i kept looking for reasons to explain how i was- i looked into astral projection, schizophrenia, etc. I felt crazy. I scared myself a lot. On the other hand, it was also all that I knew, it took until i was in my thirties to get officially diagnosed.