Yes, I want things to work out so badly with him. I just don't think it's going to happen.

I don't think he cares about me that much or even likes me as a person. He's emotionally unavailable with me, which makes it feel like it was with my parents (both felt like strangers to me). It feels like i'm being re-traumatized in many ways. I've tried to tell him several times now that it feels harmful to me.

We agreed to do more supportive therapy, but nothing has really changed. And he rejects me over and over again. Then my child parts go back inside. Then he'll be sweet for a moment, the child parts come out. Theln he'll be rejecting or distant. They go back inside and hide from the world.

I've never had an ending like this with a therapist. It feels like a massive rejection, in terms of the whole thing. IT feels like my mother rejecting me for being born. The feelings are the same. It actdually feels devastating for it to end like this.