I just can't take it anymore. I told him last session that I couldn't tolerate it...when I couldn't even meet with him. He called me and I couldn't get out of bed, couldn't stop crying.

He said to me-now I forgot. I wrote it last night. He said either "you're saying i'm not the right therapist for you" (he's been saying that a lot lately) or he said that I "am perceiving it to be this way"... I actually forget right now.

No kind words, no understanding. No comfort. Just intellectdualizations. Interpretations.

Adding-I am so incredibly angry about it right now. I can't think of anything else but fleeing. If I tell him all this, yes, working through this would be good, but he will still be emotionally distant and not care aobut me. So what's the point of being in a relationship like that? My self worth couldn't be lower. I need someone to help build it up. I need reconstructed. I've already been torn down...defenses dismantled. Stripped of everything.