Thanks for reading and responding. I honestly didn't expect my post would be like code lol. I've studied psychology before a bit, but I eventual changed my major because studying it made me depressed even more as it reminded me of countless times I was right with various different relationships. I think my problem is that I don't talk about these feelings to other people. I just keep them bottled up and no matter how hard I try to move forward, it just resurfaces.

I've met different psychology professors as well, but I was quickly able to notice that most of them either didn't really care too much and felt obligated to help because I was attending a Christian university. Or the other problem was that I felt they weren't intellegent enough to handle my problems. Like I would be able to predict too many moves and reach a conclusion faster then they could. Honestly, it makes me feel like a freak that I could do such a thing. Studying psychology just put names on various things I already figured out to myself. Reading 400 level textbooks is where I benefit the most but I would get depressed because I wouldn't be able to handle the memories that resurfaced.

I'm more comfortable talking to a small collective group of friends with high intellegence because they can keep up with the conversation. The only problem is they have their own problems and struggles where they can't keep dedicating the time. They want to help, but they have responsibilities as well so I am just limited on the number of people I can talk to.

I guess the reason why sharing my problem helps is because I wouldn't bury it and move on. I would output my distress and move on with less weight. This forum definitely helped me so far.

Again thanks for reading and responding.