Please dont think your the only one that feels that way. I feel that way everyday.

I try to remember that the only "normal" I have found in this life is on a button on my dishwasher. Other than that, I havent found the rule book yet.

I put on my other face and keep going. Something I learned in the military, "you ain't dead yet, keep moving!!!!!!!!!" I know I'm delusional but I really do want a life with someone that loves me and where I can live in quiet peace. The only way I will get there is to keep trying to find it. Nobody is going to walk up and give it to me.