hi darkest days
it may take a very long time for you. this is something that you shouldnt even be worrrying about right now. this is all still too fresh. if you are wanting to lesson your pain, you may think about boxing up your brother's items, not the personal ones, you will want those, those are special, but the clothes and things you will not be using or needing. hold on to only the things he cherished or that hold cherished memories for you and donate them. this will help alleviate some of the pain for you. but please, do not feel like you let him down. he had healht issues severe enough to require a care taker. you gave everything you could to him i am sure. most caretakers give more of themselves than taking care of themselves. do not feel you let him down. you made him as comfortable and cared for as possible. as loved as possible during his last days. imagine if he werein a home. you gave him personalized loving care he could have got no where else. you did not let him down. be proud of you for what you gave and know that he was probably thankful.