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Hi i'm sort of new here. I'm a girl that is quite different i say. My friends are mostly guys and they even think that i'm 'one of the guys.'
Right now i have a very difficult peer pressure problem. I really can't cope up with my feeling when i'm near popular girls. It's not that i'm the loser girl everyone hate, it's just that i really feel awkward and weird when i'm near them. As if i must do something to impress them, and i must be their friend or something. I don't want them to think that i'm boring.
I'm an extrovert, laughing, talking out loud, being silly, making friends and stuff are my thing. But when i'm with them i look like a coward, weird girl that i'm not.
I really wanna be myself and be fun like who i really am.. But it's really hard to be that way.. i guess i just can't stop wanting to be popular too. Ridiculously i also want to be seen 'popular'. They have a free high self esteem and i just want that so badly. I don't wanna be a negative person.
I wanna be positive. And not care what other people think of me.
Does meditating help? I wanna try!
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