Yes, the other day I was forced to recall a trauma moment, and I did it before running to pick up my partner at the store. I had to search for the memory because it's locked up somewhere, and I found it, and I wished I never did, because I had a breakdown and kept trying to depersonalize driving down the freeway, crying..I was fighting it all the way. Later that night I cut my arms all up and ended up in the hospital for a few weeks.

That trauma is back under lock and key, and I couldn't tell you what it was today. For sanity sake, we just don't go there.

I grew up with PTSD, a shell of a person. Soon personalities were stepping up to fill in the blanks. Each alter has a function, a job to do. They have their own special coping mechanism to life. When a situation requires another talent, then that alter will step up. I always thought I was a great thinker because I utilize both the right brain and the left brain, but thinking about it, that only pertained to the alter present. Parts of me is creative and artistic while other parts follow a logical thinking process. I can do a large variety of differing things. One moment I'm an interior designer, then later an accountant- sure everyone does that (which I hear so often), but I feel like two different people with different attitudes and eyes.

Things magically move around. I've almost gotten used to it, but not so quite, lol.