Thank you everyone...

I'm not hung up on labels but I am hung up on the fact that I am realizing how 'not normal' I am. I've felt it most my life and then kept up a pretty good 'fake' act, but I'm tired of it. I just want to be comfortable in the world. I have to be here now. I created a life for myself. I have a husband and a 2 year old son (that I do love dearly)... But I can't just 'leave' anymore. So if I have to be here, I want to at least 'try' to 'want' to be here, but I don't want to feel different the entire rest of my life...