Hi im a 31 year old female and have been really struggling with my mental state for the last 10 years I have never had any clear diagnoses
from a doctor of what is wrong with me, only that they think I seem to have an anixety/panic disorder but I also have severe bouts of crippling depression also
I have days when I am feeling on top of the world and im creative and fun to be around but also have a drinking problem about 3 times a week I will binge
on vodka and drink wine alot at the which I only do when im feeling confident in myself I feel like I do this to make my high
feelings even better. But ive been starting to make very bad descisions and I feel like I have no care about the consquences
of what I am doing like for instance was in work this week on tues and was feeling great gettin my work done then when I finished work I decided to out alone to the closest
bar where I got wasted also by the time I was leaving I started a verbal argument with the barman and smashed a glass on the bar b4 I left I really felt out of control and not myself
and really didn't care what happened to me. When I got home I felt suicidal and just passed out when i woke up I had missed work so had to call in sick as I then felt extremely depressed and cudn't face going out of the house Im off work again 2 day as my depression is really getting worse Im seeing a new doctor tomorrow and
hopefully it will go ok. Im just wondering could I be suffering fromsymptoms of bipolar??