I finally told my T. that I didn't have the words to describe my feelings - just the basics: sad, mad, happy, etc. She gave me a feelings list. After posting here, someone shared a feelings wheel. It helped me realize what basic feeling my other feelings let to. THe feelings list gave me words to put to my emotions.

One night I was writing in my journal and wrote "I think...", scratched it out, got my feelings list and wrote "I feel....". As I saw the words to chose from, the tears flowed and I got a lot out. It's almost like I wasn't connecting the feeling TO a word.