It's getting on towards bedtime now and I have the awful choice, sleep on the sofa or try out the bed. I've taken some sedating anti-histamines for the itching, they are only moderately effective on the itch and I feel bleh, but not drowsy. It could be a long night ahead of me. I hope those of you that like the games forum are "out to play" tonight, I could use the distraction.

I really don't like myself right now. I feel such a failure, I can't even keep a tidy house and that is what has got me into this mess. Wise brain keeps telling me these things just don't work like that, but depressed, ashamed, anxious brain says shut up wise brain. I also want to si, really lay into myself, but as I have a physio appt on Monday, I don't want to turn up covered in bruises or worse, the insect bites are going to be embarassing enough.

Apart from I've been told not to move stuff from the bedroom until after it has been treated, I would have been in there bagging stuff up for the dump. I expect when all this is over I'll be too tired to do that and everything will get stuffed back in its corners until the next disaster.

I guess I am on the borderline of being a hoarder, I can't get rid of stuff and I get obsessed with bits and pieces and "collect" them. I have an attic room full of junk and when I run out of floor space in my bedroom I take surplus stuff up to the attic or have a clear out and take about a quarter of what needs ditching to the dump and maybe give some of the better stuff to charity. I know I have to change before it is too late, so I do hope this is the wake up call I need.