signed into a new depression site tonight cos i didn't want to post any more crap here. just isn't the same, trying to stay sane and finding it so hard. crisis doc told me to ccome off the prozac and go see my gp on monday morning. dont know if i can get to monday morning. so distressed, diazapam doing nothing to ease this contant pain inside. i've never felt like this in my life, not knowing what to do or who to turn to, so much support but cant seem to reach it. i actually want to go to a mental institution to be kept an eye on, i just dont trust myself at all at this time i have to think about my kids. all that's keeping me nearly functioning. i'm so sorry for being so negative all the time i want to help others too but cant keep my own head above this stinking water called life. i'm sorry,, so sorry.

jin