In the long run, you are going to have to respect your wife's decision and you will soon have to move on from the excitement of it. How soon did this stop? It could be that you enjoyed this for so long that it not being there is just new. After time, and you get used to the joys of being the only one with your wife, you may find that you enjoy that just as much. There is also replacing that fetish with something that you and your wife can do together, you know, bringing in something new to the bedroom just for you two. Ya'll led a kinda spicy lifestyle and maybe you are just not used to it being just the two of you.