I'm sorry that you are just beyond frustrated. Charting moods can be very helpful for you and your Pdoc, But right now , your not able to even figure out where you could even be at. So don't. Is your T not helpful? Your T should be helping you learn coping skills and ways to find balance in your life.

I chart my moods on paper, mine is a 1-10 scale. Or many people use mood chart apps on there phones.

If your T and Pdoc arent helping , maybe you need to find a new treatment team .

I hope you find some relief soon