ladytiger, Wow I am sorry to hear about your abuse. That really saddens me. It is awful to have to deal with such issues as yours in later life. I am truly sorry for your experiences, mental issues and living situation.

I only have a couple suggestions for you. You can go online or YouTube and find out how to do pelvic floor strengthening exercises.

Also try the tampons that have a plastic applicator as they are much more comfortable to use if you aren't already.

I really hope that you get all of this sorted out. I wish you the very best. ((hugs))