Never is a long time. Try to focus instead on feeling better right now. What are things that can help you do that? When you find your thoughts drifting into the negative bring your mind back to the now and what you can do.

Your recovery comes one experience or decision at a time. The road is rarely straight but you can do it. Build your support structure as you go so you can find respite when you cannot go it alone.

It will get better if you can commit to yourself.