I don’t know if this will be the most coherent post as my thoughts are kind of just rambling around in my head after coming home from therapy today. Does anyone else ever ponder the idea that therapy might actually make you more feel worse? Make you feel more depressed? I’m starting to think that being in therapy has made me a more depressed person. I’ve suffered with depression most my life, but it’s come and gone in waves. Now it’s kind of settled into a deep wave of despair and it isn’t lifting. I’ve developed a deep need and attachment for T after four years of being with her. I have almost no desire to live – no motivation to do anything I used to enjoy – no hope or goals for a future. I think about therapy and T and why I feel horrible and what I need to do to heal….I think about this nearly 24/7. So how does therapy help if all I do is think about therapy and think about T?