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I remember there were times when mom would sit down and just start sobbing for no reason I would go sit by her and wait for her to speak. It was usually about she hated my father or she hated this person or that person but sometimes it was me . then she would tell me how wonderful her life would be and it would make her so happy if i would die and i should not be so selfish and stop hurting her by being alive. I know now like I knew then that she was off in the head and I didnt listen to that **** but yeah it still hurt. I remember times when she would walk through the house cussing beating herself in the forehead with her left hand and cutting at the air in front of her with a kitchen knife. I remember one time she had just fixed me a plate of food then got a kitchen knife held it to my chest and started ranting that she was going to kill me because i was a good for nothing little son of a ***** then walked away came back to the table a minute later put her arm around me and told me she loved me so much . I'm glad this is anonymous. Sorry about posting so much here I just need to get some of this out and try to make sense of whats been going on in my head for so long. I hope there is someone here who had similar experiences
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