Paula, I don't want to get bogged down in the details of your and your T's communications and what was said and how it was said and what it meant and so on and so forth. I think, all that is irrelevant to the fact that you are not risking anything by giving it a try. You can quit any time if you want to. As far as the money is concerned, if you do decide to quit, don't look at the money you will have spent as a waste. Every life experience is a lesson no matter how negative or adverse. Everything is a learning experience, and, like it or not, learning always has a price tag attached to it, which may or may not be limited to the monetary spending. Trust me, if I had the level of awareness I have right now 10-12 years ago, I wouldn't have spent so much on my therapy and I wouldn't have stayed in therapy as long as I did. But I don't consider my time in therapy and the money I spent there a waste. At least half of my sessions were not worth the payments I made and I sure as hell am angry about it. Yet, I've learned a lot from all that experience, and for me to say that it was all just a loss is to say that it had no meaning, when, in fact, it did. Certain life experiences cannot be measured or estimated in tangibles. They are what they are and they cost what they cost. You learn, you process, you grieve and when you get to the point of accepting them for what they are and understanding what role they played in your life, you will grow and move on..

I'd say if you have doubts, give it a try because that's the only way to evaluate the T better and that would make it easier to decide if you should proceed. Just like the T is evaluating you, you have the right to evaluate them, to ask all the questions you have and to share all the concerns. There is no way for you to know how this T deals with your questions and concerns if you don't see her again.