maybe its cos i havnt slept in days
maybe its cos everytime i close my eyes i see the horror that has been/is my life
i just want to cut
i want to feel the pain
i want to see the blood
i want to come so close to wake up again to punish myself
to feed the guilt
to feed the lonliness
to feed the emotional discomfort
to feed their strength
to do it over and over again

i just feel so dirty so foul
im filthy
and i cant get rid of it

i feel rotten inside
i feel black
i feel heavy

i want the blood
to make me see im still alive
im fresh inside