I had a hard session. Something happened that led me to begin to feel really difficult emotions, and so I 'drifted off", dissociated I guess. I was fighting it, but that made it worse.....I couldn't speak or move for a while...

I was terrified, back in the past and trying to stay in the present, and T was trying to ground me....and I suddenly found I was terrified that I had done something wrong and something bad was about to happen.

T tried to ensure I was grounded before I left, but I was a mess......

So........this is the dumb bit.......

I was driving home and freaking out that I had said something wrong and I was in trouble with T. Is this common? Anyway....I called him!! I almost never call, maybe once or twice in 2 years when in complete panic.

I called....and he told me no I wasn't in trouble, I had actually not spoken during that time so had said nothing that was wrong and I wasn't in trouble with him......but he seemed....aloof and a little annoyed, almost didn't want to give me support for how to manage what I was experiencing when I asked for help.

Have I done something really stupid? Have I stepped over the line??

(I am panicked, because he may be leaving soon and I can't have this end even sooner because I have stuffed up)