SG, Yes I often wonder what we it feel like when therapy comes to a close. Well the intense 2xwkly therapy I am in now.

I know T said one of the advantages of therapy is, it gives me another avenue, it teaches me think.

I guess I was hoping somewhere in the deepest darkest realms of my mind, that therapy would change my history. IT can't, but I guess I am getting better at thinking about it.

When I have self destructive thoughts, which I still do often, they do not seem as deep or last as long.

I still idolise about suicide, I just dont feel as close to it though, my thinking helps give me distance between the thoughts and the actions.

I also think this forum isn't just about progress, its fine to talk about our depressions and setbacks. Recovery isn't a straight line and I'd rather people talk "real" how it really is for them or otherwise we/I can feel I'm not doing as well as others if it was all honkey dorey posts.