Paula,

I'm sorry you are struggling so much. Can you take anti-anxiety medications to shut off the fear and worries, at least to get you started with a new T?

I'm an extremely fearful person too. One thing I've been successful at is doing things I'm scared to do. When i'm scared to do something, I 'push aside' the fearful thoughts to just do it. I'm not sure how to explain it better, but it's worked for me many times in the past. (Maybe it is suppression-a conscious, temporary repression?). The feelings will get dealt with eventually, but it's a way to get over the initital obstacles.