Like some others have said, it's better you know this T couldn't handle things (her own issue) now rather than later....though I know it still hurts.

I'm struggling to reply about the T not holding a time slot for you, so forgive me if this comes out wrong. I understand and don't understand the T's decision. First let me start off with the situation of holding a time slot in general. Normally, at least here, you would have only one evaluation session and would then have to make a decision. T's normally won't hold reoccurring time slots unless you're their client. They do this as a profession and need to make money. After 3 visits, you didn't confirm if you were going to be a client nor confirm a time slot, other people did confirm, so her schedule filled up. The same situation would happen with any other professional or doctor. Other people need help too. That's the part I understand.

The part I don't understand is why the T said the things she said to you and her actions afterward. She probably shouldn't have allowed 3 evaluation sessions. She probably shouldn't have inferred that she will hold a time slot for you. And if she did say those things, then she should have at least informed you that her schedule was filling up.

It's easier said than done (because I know it now adds to your abandonment feelings with Ts), but you're just going to have to push onward. Not every T is a good fit. This one wasn't. What happened, happened, and you can't change that.

Like someone else mentioned, why don't you try out the older T?