I'm not sure if this is the right place for me to be. I feel like the descriptions of Complex PTSD fit. I engage myself in a lot of self-hatred and guilt.

I find myself not being able to speak about certain things. But my experience was really not that bad....

Everyone suggests that I talk about this. But to who? Myself? It never makes much sense to other people when I try to explain the whole thing. So I try explaining in different parts. Actually, normally I just give up. I just feel like a terrible person.

It's been getting worse. I start to feel pain in my chest. But it goes away eventually. I don't smoke and I don't have asthma. Is this what is called somatization?

Living in the past is bad. But so is burying things in the past right? Or is that good? I'm confusing myself. Sorry for rambling. I should just do something about it instead of talking. I hate feeling like an attention seeker.