So sorry this happened. On the positive side - you did have doubts about her - so maybe she really wasn't the right T for you? I guess she couldn't contain your anxieties (if that is the right word) about re-starting therapy. I agree with the others here who have posted about emailing, I also don't think it is a good way of communicating in therapy. I also think that when you find a T and have had one evaluation there is a different approach you could try - you could just start with them and see how it feels talking to them for one or two or more sessions, you don't have to decide at the outset and make a commitment to stick with that person, and you can also talk to them as you go along about your doubts/ how you are finding it?