Thank you all for your support. It helps to know that there are other people who have some idea of what this feels like.

Werewoman, your post was so helpful. I'm glad reading my experience helped you, too. Is it ok to ask you some questions? I could send you a PM if you prefer that to putting things here.

This is all a bit weird, and yet it also feels quite natural. The terror and misery of the little me came out when all this was first triggered nearly a year ago, I just didn't realise what it was. Has that little part of me always been there deep down, feeling like that? I feel like I want to talk to her and comfort her, but I'm not sure if I should do that in my own or wait till I see T again. It seems extremely dissociative, which scares me, or am I reading too much into it? I don't know. I mean, it sounds like DID, which somehow seems different from depersonalisation and stuff.

I'm sure it's good that I've found the little me and that I have that very early memory. I suppose I just don't like being uncertain about what's happening.

Thank you again, all of you, for your kind thoughts. I don't feel like I deserve them but I'm glad to have them.