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Originally Posted by ManOfConstantSorrow
This does make me smile rather, the very person who apparently has all that you desire also needs therapy and instead of thinking 'well, all this and they need they therapy after all', you think 'all this and NOW they want therapy too'.
I don't mean to be intrusive or in any way criticise, but I would genuinely be interested to know how you view therapy - is it something that you need but would rather do without or is it something you need but is also part of your lifestyle?  |
Oh wow. Well this comment threw me back on my keister.
I never thought of it that way.
I did think of my foe, "Why could she possibly need therapy!?" But, she's depressed and depression doesn't discriminate its victims. So I understand why she goes.
At first, I was resentful of even needing therapy at all. I even told the therapist, "If I could read a book and get answers, I would. But I've tried that and I'm still not fixed. So I guess I'm stuck with trying this. Let's proceed."
And then when it came to healing specific traumas, I'd say things like, "Can we just bang this out? Can we hurry this up?"
I had no patience with myself or the therapist, and I kept her at an arm's length. In fact, when she describes my attitude the entire first year, she sticks her arm out and puts her hand up, as if my body language always said, "Stay back."
It's true, too. I'd take the chair in the room and move it to the farthest-most wall, diagonally from her chair, which is the maximum allowable distance.
But it's been two years now and it's becoming more like part of my lifestyle. The therapist has helped me tremendously. And our weekly conversations keep me sane and are my way of being good to myself, and of preserving my sanity, after a lifetime of beating myself up.