I find this interesting as I´ve now thought more and more about the negative transference this T claims she experienced and as that´s a normal part of therapy, why just not take the therapy from that point? I said this to her when answering her last e-mail even if I know she won´t get back to me anymore.

The T experiencing negative transference seem to be a bit of a clue to all heartbroken people here at PC. I now talk about posts about being abandoned in some way or another, a too common problem as it seems. How is it even possible that a T can´t receive this? Isn´t it a part of the healing process of the client? I think I know that much that I´m sure it´s the way it should be.

Thanks for the comment on the older T and encouraging me to meet with her again. At the moment I´m not sure at all, I don´t have that much of an apprehension of her really and I don´t know if I´d manage to find out. I don´t know if I want to go through this again. Perhaps my problems will stay unsolved, it doesn´t seem to be any help.

I got this odd thought about cutting myself in the arm, I didn´t try and I don´t want to have cutting wounds but the thought emerged though. Some kind of physical pain could perhaps relieve my feelings at the moment.