When I suggested to take a break, I didn't mean to say that you should just wait and do nothing. That's not what taking time for yourself means.

I have an impression that looking for a therapist right now after a traumatic termination, has taken on an obsessive quality for you. It's like you feel strongly that the only thing that can take your pain away instantly is the "right" type of therapist who can urgently fix what your former therapist had broken, in other words who can undo the hurt ASAP. This is not going to happen, because this is not possible.

You are in a lot of pain at the moment and you are unable to set realistic therapy goals for yourself, and as long as this is the case, you will be getting hurt over and over again, as every therapist you'll see will, most likely, turn you down.

I think, it'd be best for you to contact some crisis center or even suicidal hotline, because it seems to me that you are in crisis. When you are in crisis, it's not a good time to look for a regular therapist, as they are naturally hesitant to take on a new client who is unstable. They deal with the crises of clients they already work with, but they don't normally take on new cases when the person is in crisis.

I think, it's time for you to reach out to other types of professionals and organizations, who can help you get stable.