I said this because before I went into therapy in first place I tried for such a long time to get myself together, spending time on leisure activities and so on for several years. My anxiety just became more prominent and I understood I wonīt solve my problems on my own. I agree it would be good taking a shorter break but as I explained earlier, the T:s who offered reduced fees are not that many and often those slots offered at a reduced fee get scheduled pretty fast.
Itīs because of that not just a matter of choosing a break or not, I have to take more perspectives into account. I saw a doctor for a referral to psychatric care and she sent a referral to two psychiatric clinics and they in just a few days denied taking me in as I didnīt have that severe diagnosis. As I donīt consider myself suicidal I couldnīt call such a hotline. There are some similar numbers to call but I donīt understand how such telephone calls could help me more than a T?
If a T thinks she canīt handle my issues, Iīm really beginning to feel like a complete freak now, how could some person in a hotline handle them? Most often, you get to talk to them for about 20 minutes at most and often you have to call them several times to even get an answer.
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Originally Posted by Ididitmyway
When I suggested to take a break, I didn't mean to say that you should just wait and do nothing. That's not what taking time for yourself means.
I have an impression that looking for a therapist right now after a traumatic termination, has taken on an obsessive quality for you. It's like you feel strongly that the only thing that can take your pain away instantly is the "right" type of therapist who can urgently fix what your former therapist had broken, in other words who can undo the hurt ASAP. This is not going to happen, because this is not possible.
You are in a lot of pain at the moment and you are unable to set realistic therapy goals for yourself, and as long as this is the case, you will be getting hurt over and over again, as every therapist you'll see will, most likely, turn you down.
I think, it'd be best for you to contact some crisis center or even suicidal hotline, because it seems to me that you are in crisis. When you are in crisis, it's not a good time to look for a regular therapist, as they are naturally hesitant to take on a new client who is unstable. They deal with the crises of clients they already work with, but they don't normally take on new cases when the person is in crisis.
I think, it's time for you to reach out to other types of professionals and organizations, who can help you get stable.
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