Hi sura ya,
I can see how this is very painful for you right now. I can also imagine just how painful and hopeless life seems at the moment. I am nor going to say things get better because for me seeing the wrong therapist three times used to evoke al of these painful hurt feelings too. I am not saying your t isn't working anymore but perhaps her approach isn't.
Do you know your attachment type? People with an insecure attachment and past trauma will get helpless quicker when in distress, triggering depression, anxiety( even complicated grief) because they are are not used to having or being supported. Do you ever discuss attachment or inner child work? I think this would of great benefit to you to get back some empowerment and power over your life .