I agree to that and the pain concerning this specific event will go away much easier than the long-lasting pain from the former therapy. But what makes me very anxious now is that there are very few potential T:s left.

One who some months ago offered therapy at a reduced fee, now several months later I don´t know if she has available slots at all. Then, the older T I don´t have that much of an apprehension about and I´m hesitant because I think perhaps the stress behind not knowing when she´ll retire could be too much to handle for me.

It´s reassuring knowing her comment about negative transference in some way came out of her own insecurity. I told her several times I was very interested in psychology and I also brought some quite analytical inputs to the discussion when talking to her. Perhaps my e-mail to her in a way was what she waited for.