I relate. Did you happen to clog the crack in the wall and leave a sea at the ready to geyser out horizontally? In my experience, masking that ever present childhood anxiety with other substance caused a nuclear explosion of neurons misfiring. But sobering up, exercising a ton, and finding a cocktail made me find some peace. Anxiety is a cousin of depression. Getting to the core of your issue might help. Childhood trauma; whatever it may be... No one is anxious there whole life for no reason in my philosophy.