Language is imperfect, but the challenge in bending and shaping language brings its own rewards. Maybe the issue isn't just language, but that your internal sense of feeling and meaning doesn't match with the words most use? For me, it was a challenge relearning language because my experience of emotional language developed in my childhood was so full of contradictions: it hurts, but is good for you; love is abuse; happiness is selfishness; crying is weakness; pleasure is shameful, etc.

As infants we learn about our feelings by seeing them reflected in our parents' faces. If that doesn't happen, or the parent's expression is imposed on the child, it impacts us.

What helped me counter these lessons was learning to read very young and developing reading skills far ahead of my grade level, and watching TV. It gave me more words, engaged my imagination, and gave me visual info to understand what "normal" expressed emotions looked like. I had to learn it all like a foreign language. I learned in therapy that it was ok to show expression because showing emotions was either punished or shamed as a child. So I guess I'm saying that it can be a process that has many layers to explore.