In the early 70s there was a saying amongst feminists: A woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle.

I would amend that to include anyone without someone who is bad for them is like a fish without a bicycle. And you know how much fish need bicycles!

You may be amazed at how much better you feel without him after you work through all the the attendant breaking up stuff. I have been repeatedly amazed that way to the point that I can finally pretty much see the yoyos coming and take evasive action.

Best to you.