When I was in my teens, I told heinous lies. This is outside of my character and was done during a manic episode. At the same time I was lying, I was cutting and writing evil letters in my own blood. There is no doubt I was out of my dam mind.
I think that mania can so inhibit you that you make terribly poor decisions including, sometimes, lying. I am honest and I have not lied during any episode since.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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