Hi Ipse,
Like I said in another reply to you in another thread, I'm sorry you're suffering.

It sounds to me like it was a very strange therapeutic relationship. From your posts over the last few days, I'm thinking she might be afraid of you. Perhaps knowing that you've reported that you have zero other relationships, maybe she thinks you've grown too dependent on her. Is that a possibility?

I agree with others here that it might be best to give yourself some time and space to heal. I know she was very important to you and losing that relationship is a painful loss. Once you accept that it is over, you can begin the grief process. As you well know, we have to experience the pain to truly heal from it. It's no fun, for sure.

Please keep posting. We're all here for you.
Take good care,
Okie