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okiedokie said:

It sounds to me like it was a very strange therapeutic relationship. From your posts over the last few days, I'm thinking she might be afraid of you.

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....and to even think that she might be afraid of me adds another measure of agony to me.....she and I discussed my dependency on her before and I have said I don't want to be....but i've been to afraid of the world to make connections.

....god....it hurts to add more thoughts to my already confused mind......and now i ramp up the fear she might be afraid of me.........and that does wonders for my self-esteem too......