i do not feel safe. i am acting like i am strong and not weak. i need to get out of here, i feel like **** all the time. i don't have a damn therapist or a psychiatrist. i'm not on medications i don't go to AA/NA meetings anymore - why? because this ex-boyfriend stopped me and i allowed it. i feel so stupid, i let this guy ruin my life only to be the one sitting here in shambles confused; i just want to cry you guys. i can't handle this, i feel so alone in all of this. i don't want to deal with any of this, and why the hell should i? i'm tired.